I've been thinking a lot about this, and I have to ask: why do some people not want kids? It's like they're living life to the fullest, having babies without any problems... or so it seems.

This is just my two cents, but I think it's a rhetorical question that doesn't need an answer.

Everyone's got their own path, their own struggles, and their own destiny. We're only given the challenges we can handle, or can't handle, and then it's game over.

Now, I'm going to share my latest challenge, courtesy of fate. It's another miscarriage.

I've been through this before, twice, and then I finally got my miracle baby.

My fourth pregnancy was a long time coming, and I was determined to get everything just right. I worked on getting my iron levels up over the summer, and I started preparing my body for pregnancy months in advance.

I'd learned from my previous miscarriages that I had some issues with blood clotting, so I was taking preventative measures to avoid any problems during this pregnancy.

It was a dream come True when I saw my little heartbeat on the ultrasound at 7 weeks. I felt amazing, and everything seemed perfect.

My doctor was just as thrilled, and she sent me home feeling confident.

But then, at 9 weeks, I went in for another checkup, and everything seemed fine. The doctor said to come back in two weeks for my first screening.

The first-trimester screening, also known as the 12-week scan or the first scan, is a comprehensive test that checks for any potential issues with the baby.
However, my perfect pregnancy didn't last that long.

At 10 weeks, I started feeling a scratchy sensation in my throat, I couldn't breathe through my nose, and my temperature started spiking. It was like my body was going into overdrive.

I managed to get my temperature back under control after four days, but then the real nightmare began: a persistent, non-stop cough that kept me up all night and woke me up in the middle of the night. I was beside myself with worry, wondering how this would affect my baby's health.

I called in a doctor, and they prescribed some medication, but it didn't do anything for me. I was at my wit's end.

One morning, I saw some brown discharge... and I was shocked. What was going on? I rushed to the clinic, and the gynecologist confirmed that I was experiencing a miscarriage. She was going to admit me to the hospital, but I insisted on getting an ultrasound first. And thank goodness I did, because it turned out that the miscarriage had already happened.

My pregnancy ended at 7 weeks. When I had the ultrasound, the fetal heartbeat was 9mm. By 11 weeks and 4 days, the embryo had grown as expected, but the fetal heartbeat was only 10mm. The ultrasound technician couldn't detect a heartbeat.

I'll be honest, I didn't believe in a second miscarriage. My last hope was on the HCG test. But even that went down.

HCG is a hormone that starts being produced by the placental tissue after the embryo implants - already on the 6-8th day after fertilization, and it's one of the most important indicators of the presence and well-being of the pregnancy.Variants of pregnancy termination weren't discussed. According to the gynecologist, medical abortion is now a priority among other types of abortion. During my visit, my gynecologist told the ultrasound technician how they did the abortion for a woman whose missed pregnancy was over 20 weeks.

My pregnancy stopped in Belarus. And I thought that the whole medical abortion procedure would be the same as in Russia.

<<<<I had my two previous miscarriages terminated at a private clinic, where I was also supposed to have my pregnancy. Before leaving the clinic, they gave me some pills (the first stage of abortion), and 1.5 days later, I came back to them for the second stage, took some more pills, and then lay down at the clinic's day ward. The doctor monitored me, and if needed, they'd give me pain relief, and by evening, I was already on my way home.>>>>

In Belarus, terminating a pregnancy over 5-7 weeks is strictly done in a hospital, strictly with a referral from a polyclinic. All my attempts to buy or have an abortion outside of the hospital were unsuccessful.

I was really nervous! While preparing for the procedure, doing the tests, my pregnancy had reached 12 weeks and 1 day. It was really tough psychologically! Before the hospital, I had to provide all the necessary tests, take a PCR test for COVID (BINGO! It turned out to be positive!), and in the end, they sent me to the COVID ward for the abortion.

Here, they looked at me in a chair, took my anamnesis, analyzed the tests, and prescribed a scheme for the medical abortion.

1st stage: at 18:00, I had to take 600mg (3 pills) of Mifepristone.

2nd stage: a day after taking Mifepristone, I took Mifepristone again at 06:00 and 09:00 in the morning.

3rd stage: removing inflammation, preventing infections with antibiotics, and physiotherapy.

Total: 1 week in the hospital!

At 18:00, I received the first batch of pills for the abortion.

Mifepristone is a Russian-made medication, produced in Kaluga Oblast. 1 pack contains a single dose - 3 pills, each 200mg.The pills are of average size, light yellow in color.

The medication comes with a detailed instruction manual, listing a significant number of side effects.I didn't have any specific instructions before taking the medication, although the manufacturer's instructions mentioned:

After taking the pills, I had them inside me for about 1-1.5 hours after eating a light breakfast, washed down with 100ml of boiled water, as my gynecologist advised.

She warned me that I wouldn't feel any discomfort from these pills, as they help soften the cervix, expel, and detach the fertilized egg.

Some women are lucky enough to have the fertilized egg come out after taking these pills, but I wasn't one of them.

I also had to use a pad after taking these pills, as I started to experience discharge, just like during my period.

My feelings after taking the pills:

The medication didn't cause me any discomfort, but I did feel a slight pulling sensation in my lower back at night when I went to the bathroom. That went away soon, though. The next day, I felt fine too. I didn't experience any expected discharge in the morning, so I switched from a menstrual pad to a regular sanitary towel. It wasn't until the evening that I started to see some light bleeding, similar to the beginning of my period, and occasionally, I'd feel a slight pulling sensation in my lower back. Sometimes, my cervix and uterus would ache a bit.

Would I recommend it?

Mifepristone is a pretty serious medication, and it's not something you'd take on a whim, as you can see. You can't just buy it at a pharmacy. If there's a new life growing inside you and a tiny embryo is beating away, I wouldn't recommend it. But if the embryo has already died, like in my case, then this is the best way to end an unviable pregnancy.

I'll be sharing the second stage of the pill abortion in my next post. I'll be telling you about using Miroluta (Click!)

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